Hopes

I'm a very hopeful person. I'm bubbly and outgoing especially about people I care for and for things that excite me. Im quick to trust people, to a flaw sometimes and it has left me getting hurt in the past, but I dont change because I can't allow negative situations to dictate my outlook on others. One of the quickest ways for a person to lose my ability to trust them almost unwaveringly is to get my hopes up for something they know I really want or am looking forward to and then to change the plan or cancel last minute.  I rely on what people tell me and expect it to be the truth so when it turns out to be false, I can't help but question what they say to me in the future. I don't bullshit people, I don't tell people what they want to hear or sugar coat the truth, I won't tell someone something positive unless I mean it.. So I naturally expect the same from others. There are certain situations where things must change and generally ill understand them, but other than that, getting my hopes up and not following through is a good way for me to disappear from your life. I don't have time to be wasting it on someone who is comfortable hurting me in any capacity and that only is more so the case, if ive given a second or if I really cared, 3rd, chance. I hope no one does this because it really does hurt, I'm more sensitive than most which I hate, but I can't help how God made me. So i learn to live with it but I also have learned how to build up walls so that I don't end up hurt.